Chapters

I've come to the conclusion life never slows down. One thing rolls into another and gives birth to a whole new season, guiding you directions you never would have thought for yourself. What I love about God however, is how it's still what you wanted. I didn’t expect the road I took, but I wanted a deeper relationship with God. I asked for more intimacy, for greater trust, and a fully surrendered heart. Ask and you will receive, what I forgot about was what it would take to get there.

I GOT A NEW JOB!!! It's wonderful and in marketing, I love it, and it fits me well. I knew this was the job for me. I worked, prayed, fasted, and prayed again for six months for this job and I got it! They picked me! It was a brilliantly awesome day when I received that call. I had called for four weeks to get the first interview, waiting four weeks until the second, and held steady for three agonizing days until I was offered the position.

Those three days were a final sprint in a two year, eight month marathon of one of the toughest seasons I've been in. God was so faithful. Monday night was the interview. It went well though I didn't leave as confidently knowing I was in competition with one other who had industry experience. Oh well, that's ok, we knew that going into it! Monday night was easy, Tuesday proved itself to be one of the hardest days I may have ever had to endure. I hated where I was and time literally was crawling backward, People were asking if I had heard yet, my friends that I normally share my day with where busy so I was hanging solo and sour on Tuesday. Tuesday I reminded myself every four and a half minutes that God is not a man so he does not lie. He is not human so he can not change his mind. I said that over and over. The rest of the verse continues to say, has he ever spoken and failed to act? Has he ever promised and failed to carry through? I knew what I had heard and I chose to remember those words instead of the ones like doubt, uncertainty, and anxiety. I used other scripture to fight those words and so on and so forth.

Wednesday wasn't as hard as Tuesday, but it came with its own challenges. I was much more at peace this day. Whenever my mind tried to take me somewhere else my inside would tell me to be still and know that he is god. In doing that I remembered he was not a man, he could not lie, his character has always proven itself to be good, and I chose to believe in those truths than the lies that wanted to try and take ground. I was quiet, I rested in this place, and God's sweetness held me gently that day. Thursday I knew I would hear either way. It was the day and I was waiting.

At 9:13 my cell phone started to ring, the caller id revealing the companies phone number. I had called after this job so much I knew that number when it showed up. I was about to find out. I answered the phone with the slightest bracing to bad news that never came. I remember him offering the job, accepting, asking about my start date, and giving him my email address. That's it. There was more but I don't remember. I got off the phone stood up and whispered in the most excited whisper you can imagine to my coworker, "I GOT THE JOB!"

I said that sentence for the next three days. It Was AWESOME! I had daydreamed of that moment and the one of me giving my notice over and over again for months and to stand in those moments was so freaking great. It really was.

The best part was knowing I was faithful. I was able to say I was faithful and this is sweet reward. It is hard to explain. To know I didn't do it perfectly and there were some ugly ugly days, but I never stopped believing God. I chose to believe his word and trust his character and no matter how many times I failed, I dusted off and believed again. I finally got it. The place of knowing with out condemnation I trust God deeply and intimately encourages me to go further than I have before. It's been my tangible manifestation of the words that say: I will go from strength to strength, from glory to glory, all the while on the ever winding upward road to heaven, inviting others along on the journey.

Despite how deep you've gone, he's deeper still, and his wells are overflowing and looking to carry you down rapids that look overwhelming, but steady and consistently he’s already braved them. So just hold on it. It gets better and better. I promise.