Chapters 2

Certain laws of the universe govern our lives. The Law of gravity governs our ability to fly, the law of sowing and reaping governs our harvest, and the law of cause and effect changes each day by the decisions we make. Just as these laws govern our universe and keep things aligned and rotating, there is a law in my life which keeps me in an ever constant state of flux. Please don’t misunderstand, I am not complaining by any means, it’s more my way of understanding God has a sense of humor. He fluxes my world and everything shifts.

I have the new job and now, I am moving! That’s right, out of my gorgeous ice cream pink room! It’s been a year and what a year has it been. I think Pattee and I are both different people having lived together, but now things are shifting, the direction of life is changing the current and I am moving out. The circumstances are good and Pattee and I are both very excited about our transitions.

I didn’t know I was moving however, until last Wednesday, this point important because I am now probably moving with in weeks to make the first of the month. There are lots of circumstances leading to this quick paced move which frankly aren’t important. What is important is there is a lot of shifting and at a ridiculous rate of speed! I’m a bit shell shocked; new job, new car, and now new house! I’m excited because I am living in my brother’s house he owns here. He lives out of town and this will help us both out, plus I get to be the head of my own home for a season. I’ve never had that before. I am very excited about this endeavor.

It scares me a bit I have to admit. I am thankful. I am thankful because I really do trust God and somewhere deep inside me there is something so solidly planted in peace; it’s still cool waters keeping me calm. It’s a different place then I have ever been. I feel the momentum in my life speeding up. I feel things being removed to have newer bigger things established. And somewhere deep with that peace is something else whispering to hold on, this is what it looks like to have the desire of your hearts satisfied.

Hope is living brightly right now and it covers the emotions of sadness and worry. I have learned people like to hold on to what they know because it’s safe, even when it hurts them. We get used to what we know and let that emotion rule the fear and tell it to quiet down. I don’t want to be a person who settles out of fearing what I don’t know. Who cares what I don’t know. This is what I do know…he’s good, he’s getting better, and I’ve not even scratched the surface of how much he loves me. Knowing all that, the rest doesn’t seem all that scary.