Through the Looking Glass

There's been a load of revelation this week; poured out displays of his goodness saying yes and amen. I imagine I will be very much changed by February. As I sought the thin places tonight I was overwhelmed with his goodness. How he pours out his grace when we ask for it and his word and his will are attainable if you just keep seeking.

As I sat and talked with God I started to pray for Joseph, the cashier at the Salvation Army Thrift Store I met tonight. I prayed he’d keep the paper I wrote the church’s information down on. I prayed he’d walk into church and find his home to heal his broken, lonely heart which he poured out to us when we asked if he was excited for Christmas. As I prayed for Joseph I started to pray for Lauren, someone who told me she appreciated me because she didn't feel so alone, I prayed for her to feel comfort. I prayed for the dream over my life and how I want to love people. Then God had to of intervened because next I prayed he would always have me be a mirror to people, that I would reflect the image of themselves with God alive within them. What a powerful image and revelation! That I would always have a familiar face because people recognize themselves in me.

It's powerful and completely God because I can't think of anything close to that amazing. I really am starting to see myself in the identity God set for me. Paul completely took on the identity of God's vessel for his message so at the end of the day, he could say, “Message sent.” When Chris taught that last week it humbled me to the core, it touched something deeply within me. Somehow within a week God has breathed on what started there and I am finally starting to really deeply grasp the God identity he renamed me 9 years ago. I am different now, he accepted my bid to be used and I am finally starting to grasp the gravity of that honor and to be a good steward. There’s so much packed into that revelation; so much love and hope, satisfaction and passion. His revelation is so much more satisfying then anything else and then to think if it’s this good how much better can it possibly get? And to be quite honest with you a big sigh of relief I’ve not given up, I can do it, and this race is absolutely for me.

He’s using me, because I asked.

I am humbled.